when i was 16, i was worried about what school i am gonna go to, when im 17 i was worried about what university i am going to, then when im 20, im worried about graduating. then after graduating, im worried about getting a job. then when i get a job, i'll worry about my pay and salary and how long i am going to work there. well i havent reach that stage yet. 

it really sucks when you are 20, cause you have so many things to worry about, practically from 20-30 is the one of best part of your life, after that its a shitty life. cause probably you gonna be stuck with the same job, with a plus minus $1000 salary for the rest of your life and you just lose your motivation to work anymore. then you get married and you worried about job security and then theres kids this and that and the risk you are willing to take in life is even more. sad to say, most average people are like that. - im average. 

i can see why people at our age just want to play and play more, when will you get to play like this again. when you are older, life is only fun when its a sunday, cause its a holiday. 

i really don't want to end up like that. 

as mr bruin said, no point worrying something so far away, look nearer. well i guess its pretty true. man, i just time would just stop.

stop for a second and prolly i'll be happy. 

i don't want to get old. i don't want to see my kids. cause when i do see them, it means im really old and my parents will be really really old. thats sad isnt it. 

this coming 10 years, i should just treasure it before i find a soul mate to spend the rest of my life with. so pretty girls please pop up ! 

been a while since i typed a long long entry, no, it doesnt mean this is gonna be a long one i think.

well i started out fixing my tag-board. i just realized tag-board.com is already... whats the word. bankrupt? closed? cant believe a company like that went down. tag-board.com becomes tag-board.org, which means its a non profit organization. well just incase you guys didnt know ( im nt sure if im totally right about this ) .org means its a non profit organization. .gov means its a government site, .edu is a educational side. .com/.net well... though its the most common one around, i dont have a explanation for it. 

facebook changed so much i dont know how even navigate through it, maybe im getting old. i always think my mom must be an idiot or shes just too lazy to learn to use the computer. but now when i think about it, maybe i'll  become like her one day when im old. my sons and daughters will think im dumb cause i dont know how to use those stuff. oh well. 

well right now, im kind of studying for gmat. " kind of ". reminded me of that day that i had to go take toefl exam, did pretty okay on that one and i got accepted into dvc. that was december 2004. its already 2009 now. 5 years passed and many things happened, well for example mr bruin left for china. just saw him over the webcam, kind of unbelievable indeed. it was weird at first, but it isnt that weird now. i remember my phone used to ring a lot, but these days, my phone hardly ring. its always the same old people. my dialed and received call list, its always the people. i guess everyone can only have a few close friends that calls you now and then at one point of a time? erm. one point of time doesnt sound right to describe it. but yeah if you know what i mean. 

i somehow think im psychotic at times. i dont know why i just dont like to see people enjoying their life too much. maybe im just envious/jealous. why is my life tougher to live? why must i work. why must i save money. why cant everyone just have 1 million dollars to start with. why why why why why too many whys and i ended up wasting time contemplating  all this and at the end of the day i get nothing done. thats just so me. talk and talk but theres no action. even if there is action, everything doesnt match up at all. well. 

now i want to buy a camera, but i dont know if i should waste the money to buy a camera ( actually i dont know if its a waste of money ) or should i just save up the money. this is the problem with the middle class people, they think and think whether to buy or not. think and think whether they should do this or not. cause they are not at the extreme points of life, such as being poor or being filthy rich, they cant make a decision quick.  oh well. starbucks is open now, maybe i should go get a cup of coffee and listen to some jazz music and start doing my unproductive gmat revision. h.a.h.a.